i don’t believe

that someone can just

be gone.

there’s a god out there who’s taken her

because he couldn’t bear to be without her.

i know it.

 

i don’t believe

that someone you love

can just

disappear

from your life.

because what, then

is the point?

 

i don’t believe

that in a split second

all your loving

and all your hating

can simply

go to waste.

 

 

i don’t believe

she can just

be gone

because what does the ground want her for –

without her warmth

without the joy of her soulful smile?

 

i don’t believe them

because if what they say is true

then that means

she is just…

dead.

 

no footnote

no pretty epilogue

just a twisted joke

with a punchline that i don’t understand.

 

but if what they say is true

she was too young to disappear.

 

i don’t believe

that she isn’t somewhere

doing what she’s good at

doing what she loves

doing it all.

 

i don’t believe

she will never fall in love.

or feel what it is

to adore another

unconditionally –

like i do her.

 

i don’t believe

a person can just

“be gone”.

and if they are?

if they can?

then that’s the biggest joke of all.